It’s been quite some time since I sent you a letter and so I thought I’d write to you this morning to share a bit. I trust the LORD is guiding, blessing and providing for all that concerns you.
So, here’s what’s been on my heart. Life has many peaks and valleys – joys and sorrows, achievements and disappointments and some years seem to be more productive than others. You see, I say this bcz I know this to be true – but evening knowing this, I fall into discouragement and hopelessness sometimes. I fall into doubts sometimes – thought I know I mustn’t doubt in the dark what God has shown me in the Light or doubt in the valleys what He’s blessed me with on the mountaintops.
Maybe you’ve fallen into the trap of doubt or disappointment or fearing what others think of you when things in your life don’t match up with the message of your life. You may feel like your life’s not worth all that much or that you don’t have all that much to share with others – well, that’s been my case quite a bit in the last couple of years. I see a huge disparity in my “meant-to-to-do’s” and “actually-did’s” lists.
I share all of this – not so much to explain why I’ve not written much lately, but bcz as I was reading a book a friend gave me I realized in the reading that what I’m experiencing, or what I’ve been experiencing, is quite a common trap for women – and so, I thought I’d write to you in hopes of encouraging you with some of what’s been a blessing to me. Truly now, looking back, I wonder how I could spend so much time listening to the mocking of the enemy and not walk confidently in faith that God, the Master Controller of all things, had not shifted His gaze, that He is my only hope and that things haven’t been as dismal as I have allowed them to seem. I’ve needed to just press on toward the mark of the high calling of Christ Jesus and not heed doubts or listen to the naysayers who mock God and belittle an earnest desire to walk in obedience to the Word of God.
Do you doubt God’s Hand in your life? Do you feel like your life’s not of much worth or that you’re not of much value? Well, for what it’s worth, I’ve been feeling a bit of that, too. I see the things around me that I haven’t done so well – things I forgot to do or forgot to keep doing, or I think of the myriad of things I haven’t gotten done, letters I haven’t written, phone calls I haven’t made, prayers I haven’t prayed, another homeschooling year has passed and not enough was accomplished, passages I intended to memorize but didn’t. On and on the litany of ‘failures’ goes. I had to take some time away and just sit at the Feet of the LORD and come to the point of seeing that these things aren’t done – didn’t get done – might never get done (at least not in the way I thought they ought)… and, in humble confession before the LORD, in earnest desire to simply be where He wants me to be and in sincere prayer to yield my life to the LORD, I had to lay those heavy burdens down and look up. I had to be still and see the salvation of the LORD – to reflect on His glory and wait in His Word.
It was as if I was totally empty handed and unable to even offer a meager sacrifice of accomplishments. And then I was astonished at the blessing of the LORD. It was this – it’s always this: He is already there. There is not a time when I come to the LORD that He’s not already there. And there is not a time when I pour my heart out to Him that He’s not already listening to my cry. He knows my downsitting and my uprising – He is acquainted with all my ways. I want to please the LORD, I want to walk within my house with a pure heart, I want to delight myself in the LORD daily and I want to be a fruitful vine by the sides of my house and above all I want to, in all my ways, acknowledge Him…
This morning was, as always, a rich time in the Word. May I share a few of the verses that were quite encouraging to me from the book of Isaiah.
“O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with sapphires. 12 And I will make thy windows of agates, and thy gates of carbuncles, and all thy borders of pleasant stones. 13 And all thy children shall be taught of the LORD; and great shall be the peace of thy children… 14 In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee… 17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD.”
Isaiah 55.1-4, 6-12
“Ho, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters, and he that hath no money; come ye, buy, and eat; yea, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. 2 Wherefore do ye spend money for that which is not bread? and your labour for that which satisfieth not? hearken diligently unto me, and eat ye that which is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness. 3 Incline your ear, and come unto me: hear, and your soul shall live; and I will make an everlasting covenant with you, even the sure mercies of David.4 Behold, I have given him for a witness to the people, a leader and commander to the people… 6 Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: 7 Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. 8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. 9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. 10 For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: 11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. 12 For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.”
I pray as I send this letter that you will be encouraged and lifted up and I pray that you, as I have been, will be encouraged to lay those burdens down that you’ve been carrying – those burdens you were never meant to carry as a handmaiden of the LORD. It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. If you’ve got things that are hounding you, trials or fears, hopelessness or regret… I pray this day you’ll seek the Face of the LORD and rest in His sovereign grace that He’s already there and you need only to sit at His Feet.
Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free,
and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.” Galatians 5.1
I look forward to resuming writing letters to you all each week and trust the LORD will guide my thoughts and words as I share with you. Until next week, may the LORD bless you, your home and your family as you serve them and Him.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins,
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
with sincere love, —pamela